A letter to my 30 year old self

It's 11:13 pm as of now and I still have lots of energy here so I thought of sharing something different on the blog. My mind was preoccupied by a lot of things lately- my future, my career, my family, all those what ifs and buts- and if I have a pen and a paper now, a pad wouldn't be enough to contain all my thoughts and musings at the moment. These random thoughts of mine lead me to think of composing a letter to my self  containing the goals and things that I'm looking forward to achieve in the future. So tadaaa, here's a letter to my 30 year old self. It's a decade from now! :)

Dear 30 year old self,

Wow, you're in your thirties now! How does it feel like being 30? You probably feel so grown up right now! Haha. For sure you're managing a clinic of your own and brought back a lot of smiles to your patients. If you're not just an orthodontist, you've perhaps achieved your dream of becoming a maxillofacial surgeon by now. I hope you get to experience being a professor too from the college you graduated in because I know that teaching is one of your childhood dream, right? I hope you find fulfillment in your practice and still feel motivated every single day that you work. Maybe, during weekends, when you're off from being a dentist, you manage to attend and host events and still run your blog like what you've always wanted to do. It has probably evolved from style blogging to life, style and mommy blogging. Could you imagine that? Haha! I'll be really proud if you still manage to do all of it in spite of your busy schedule.

You've probably went to Europe with your family already, or party with friends in Bali, or even spent your first winter Christmas in Japan. Have you? You deserve all of those travels because I know that you worked so hard to pay for all of it. How about your mom? Have you bought a brand new car for her? I hope so because she deserves it more than you do, I guess. Haha! I hope your brothers are also doing better in their professions as a seafarer and architect. I know you and your mom worked hard together to send the two of them in college.

If you got really lucky, you probably have your special someone right beside you. Oh well, I'm sure you've been through a heartbreak over a guy whom you went gaga to, you might have been pained deeply but never turned into a bitter one and been through a lot in love but never decided to give up. What's important is whom you're with at the moment and the one who chose and fought a lot of circumstances just to be with you. I hope you're happily married now and fulfilling all the relationship goals you've made up in your head when you were in your twenties. I know you had lots! :) Perhaps you've started to build a small business together and is planning of settling down in your own house. If you've got even luckier, you probably have one kid by now and would still have 2 or 3 more in the near future. Just don't exceed those numbers, okay! I hope you get to manage the household well and knows how to cook already. Don't just serve your kids with fried eggs and hotdogs. Learn to experiment. Haha! I hope you get to raise your kids the way mom raised you.

I'm sure you're happy and somewhat fulfilled with whatever you have in life right now. I know, you still want to achieve a lot of things other than those mentioned, travel to a lot of different places you wished to go, and influence a lot of people through your story but I hope that in some way, you're happy after reading this letter I  gave you with the hopes that everything I have written is right. I'm sorry if I've been weak and fragile at times. Sorry if I'm frightened most of the time and dwell on all the what ifs and buts. But thank you. Thank you for never giving up and still pushing yourself even if life could be really hard at times. Thank you for taking a step forward and learning to take risks and grab chances. Thank you for welcoming change. I know all these struggles brought you up and honed you to be the best version of yourself. You deserve all of these things. Head up high, Shaira! There's still a long way to go! :)

Love,
Your 20 year old self

Special thanks to Rosegal for sending me over this cute and comfy off shoulder top. It actually comes with a choker but I decided not to wear it because it will not match the casual outfit that I put on a lazy day of errands. Thanks to my college friend, Von, for my handy bag. I'm actually overusing it already. Haha :)

Top from Rosegal, Pants from Aeropostale, Sandals from Something Borrowed, Bag from SM Accessories

xoxo,